Saying goodbye to the summer garden

I can't hold off the cold temps much longer and it's going to get below freezing tonight. I harvested the last of what's growing in the garden and covered up what I could with horticultural fleece fabric. 

I picked the last of the flowers of the season. A mix of Nasturtium, goldenrod, and herbs. 

I finished at sunset by picking the mint, catnip, and parsley. 

A pot of parsley and oregano. 

Analog and or Digital?

My friends say I am “analog.” Meaning that I use “old school” technology and I’m not up to speed on all of the latest tech gadgets. For years, I have been interested in off-grid living and using hand-powered tools and technology. Yes, analog and old school. 

I have tried to use electronic calendars. I can use it for work, but for my personal life, I need a paper calendar. 

Are you analog, digital, or both? 


This is my favorite old school calendar system, a Moleskine planner. 

fluxus music list

Posting this to bookmark my favorite music.  

Many songs have been played on The Current. 

The Current began broadcasting in 2005 as a non-commercial, member-supported radio station based in Minneapolis / St. Paul, heard on 89.3 KCMP FM. Since then, the station has grown into a far-reaching community with members and listeners joining in from around the world. The Current brings listeners the best authentic new music alongside the music that inspired it, from local to legendary, indie to influential, new to nostalgic. https://www.thecurrent.org/about

https://www.thecurrent.org/

Whiners voices

The epic drama whiner, known as "Your Coccyx" has posted another hit piece on me. She used my avatar picture, a real picture of myself linked to this blog, and lied about me. This commenter and blog owner of the cesspool as the disq turns has doxed me on posts at her blog. Now she has added defamation to that. 

This is my photo and my profile picture for this blog. This is me. 

I have a couple of pairs of sunglasses that are the "Kurt Cobain" style oval glasses. I've always kind of been stuck in the 90s and these glasses make me smile. The pair I am wearing, I bought for 25 cents at a garage sale. 

Photo from, https://picsart.com/i/image-kurtcobain-nirvana-nirvanaforever-grunge-angel-290797264040201

You may have seen this picture before if you visit the Coccyx cesspool. It's from Nice Store.  

This is not an artesian knot

No matter how hard I try to not tangle my earbuds, it happens.

It made me think of this, "The Knot Store" from Portlandia. 

If you want to fight do it here....

For Paul and Dan if you want to duke it out here, have at it. Please keep the fighting here and not at the other threads. 

Photo from http://rovinginformant.blogspot.com/2014/01/free-for-all-fight-in-ukrainian.html

What do you do when you're in a bad mood?

I have a glass of wine, meditate, go for a walk or a bike ride, have a fire outside, make stuff, draw, give myself an allotted time for being in a bad mood and then move on. 

I watch funny videos of cats or other stuff to make me smile. I am a huge fan of the University of Minnesota mascot Goldy Gopher and Goldy always makes me smile. 

The video of cats ringing a bell for food always cracks me up. 

Goldy Gopher makes me smile and give me serious giggles. How can you not smile when you see his smiling face and his goofy antics. 

What do you do if you are in a bad mood? Share your advice. 

For fucks sake, this isn't my sock account

I get falsely blamed a lot for sock accounts that aren't mine. Like this one, 

I am not this account https://disqus.com/by/helovesthem/. Although I appreciate what this commenter said. 

I don't understand why anyone would try to pretend to be my fake sister or fake family member

I saw the post by eassa and my jaw dropped. Many of you who know me have seen the Disqus channel and the sock troll accounts that were created to harass me. Commenters started sock accounts claiming to be related to me as in my sister, mother, etc. They did this to stalk and harass me and to spread lies about me and basically make my live online a living hell. 

eassa said she was “contacted by the family” to create a fake sock account to pretend to be my sister. I'm glad she had the courage to post this because it was driving me crazy trying to figure out who was pretending to be one of the fake sisters. 

This is what she posted to the commenter known as Wishin, 

“As usual you are demanding drama...Drama...DRAMA!!! Why is that wish? What is the problem that you so easily go bonkers? Have you seen a counselor or psychiatrist, which I recommended the last time you came unglued about me?

It was my intention to ignore your...female style hysteria, but you keep pushing like...an hysterical female. Anyone in the family, or friends of the family, who have anything to do with you are...deeply misguided.

Since you have continuously brought this to the attention of anyone willing to listen to your LONG rants, let me give a truthful and perhaps timely response It is time to bring the truth out into the open.

Marty P Cecillia These two people were told by email that I had opened an account as Hephziba, ER's sister. No one else was told about it at that time, save one. Cecillia was thrilled about it, sending me emails about the fabulous stories Hephiba was telling, and gave me suggestions of who else she wanted me to post to as Heph. And Marty got a tremendous kick out of it, encouraging me...until Cecillia got her nose all out of joint.

I was asked by the family if I would be willing to play the part of a sister and after considering it, I agreed. I created Heph to be lighthearted, loving toward my sissy, Estonia Rutherford, and a sweet missionary whose father was married to Momma and was eaten by savage pagans in the Congo.

Privately, Marty gave me advise on how to play the parody and told me about his other friends who were members of the family. But after Cecillia became hostile toward me, Marty also pulled away from me. It was not long after this that ER learned eassa was Heph and she confronted me.

I believe that Marty doxxed my private conversation to hurt me, but Cecillia could have well joined in on the doxxing because of her vengeful nature. There was no other way on earth that she could have learned Heph is eassa.

Before that time, ER posted to Hephziba calling me one of the guys from RoK, which I obviously was not. At that point, Marty told ER that Heph is eassa and all hell broke out, which was exactly what Marty and Cecillia wanted. But Hephziba continued to play the part.

Later wishy announced that eassa is Heph, declaring that he has it from someone very reliable. Now who could that have been??? No doubt none other than Mart., who was frustrated that jwcody would not allow him to remove my comments. That is when Marty and Cecillia took their balls and left jwcody's channel for Puddy's playground. But I digress into their vengeful nature.

Twice you came after Heph, referring to her in your posts as eassa. And also accusing me of downvoting, which was a lie and wishy knows it. ;) Others know it too wishy.

Several times when Marty came at eassa and the subject of Heph came up, I asked him questions that for him to answer would have required him to admit he had told people about my being Heph, and of course, Marty did not want to reveal his true nature and the fact that he gossips/doxxes other people's emails. So he would back down.

As for your part in this, you are a gossip and as such, you were used. You were used by someone who despises you, as so many people on Disqus do. And wishy you deleted parts of your conversations to Heph and reworked them. You must have a great deal of time on your hands. You are completely untrustworthy.

And as for my comment about you to ER a few days ago, I answered her comment truthfully. You know, you have done more good for ER than anyone could have dreamed of! All your meanness and beyond comments only cause a growing compassion, to some degree, for her. And the last time you lied about me and Heph, it was ER who reached out to comfort me, because at the time I was deeply hurt. No family came to my defense, only ER.
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My comments to ER a few days ago began with a comment I made to Shep and several posts with ER commenced. I found he to be pleasant, and after praying for her for so long, whether you can understand it or not, I am fond of her and wish the very best for her life.

I would not have deleted my comments on that thread if I had thought that Geez was going to bring it to this thread. Too bad that after he tagged me, he did not post one comment to me or make replies to my comments...rather lends some credence to ER, now doesn't it. ;)

Now, if you must, go bark at someone else, I have no desire to talk with you, nor will be get another comment from me. Your rage about people upvoting my comment shows the depth of your insecurity. We do live in a country where we have freedom of speech. ;) Visit a psychiatrist wishy, you very much need to.” 

A long walk on a cold day

I needed to clear my head and went on a long walk to look at the fall colors along the Mississippi River. It did me good. On my mind was all of the Disqus drama and what to do about it. I've been on Disqus since 2013 and for the last five years, I have been stalked by the same person who has tried to make my online life a living hell. All I can do is be myself and be honest with myself and others. I am not a perfect person nor do I pretend to be. I make mistakes and a lot of them. I try to be accountable for the mistakes I make and become a better person, although that's somewhat difficult when I am being stalked and harassed non-stop. It's difficult to do when lies and false rumors are being spread about me online and at the same time I am being doxed and harassed in real life. 

I'm still lost in my own thoughts right now and don't know where to go next, or what to do next. 

A view from the path by the Mississippi River. The fall colors are almost at their peak. 

I posted this at Paul's blog

I posted this at Paul's blog. (p.s. I am banned there)

Feeling nostalgic, https://paul035.blogspot.com/2019/10/feeling-nostalgic.html?zx=c4e654276b710fdc

In the 90s I wore a green mohair cardigan, similar to the one Kurt Cobain wore.

Kurt Cobain’s ‘Unplugged’ Sweater Heads to Auction Again, Never Been Washed, https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/kurt-cobain-unplugged-sweater-auction-896937/

https://paul035.blogspot.com/2019/10/feeling-nostalgic.html

Now for a more happy topic, edibles

Did you know you can eat flowers? 

These are all edible flowers; Nasturtium, marigold, borage, dill, and Dianthus.  

Today, I made this veggie tray of brightly colored veggies. 

The veggies included are; purple cauliflower, watermelon radish, romanesco, and sweet peppers. 

Fuck it, just fuck it

Banned again for sticking up for someone. For years I have dealt with stalkers and doxers and yes I get pissed off because of it. Wouldn't you? I helped Paul set up his blog and now he banned me. FUCK IT! Whenever I fight back, I'm the bad guy. FUCK IT. Whenever I try to help, I get fucked. FUCK IT. I'm so sick of people and the drama on Disqus. FUCK IT. Disqus was supposed to be fun and not a venue for being attacked, doxed, and fucked with in real life. FUCK IT. 

I'm tired of being nice and getting walked on. FUCK IT!

 
Graphic from https://pixabay.com/vectors/facebook-social-network-like-1558618/

A soundtrack for FUCK IT. 
Smashing Pumpkins “fuck you”
Fear “I don’t care about you”
Beastie Boys “Hey fuck you”
Chance The Rapper "Fuck you Tahm Bout"
RATM “Killing In the Name”
Peaches “Fuck the Pain Away”
The Dogs “Who Gives a Fuck”  
Lil Jon “Stop Fucking With Me”
Seether “Fuck It”

Don't like it, fuck you!

Filed under, funny as fuck

For fuck's sake, I keep getting tagged to this thread https://disqus.com/home/discussion/realm-solutionsonly/geezus_war_zone_86/

I am banned there and can't comment. Yes, that is funny as fuck in itself. 

As a note about the graphic design for the realms channels, it sucks. The pictures are pixilated and the entire design is horrible. 

This moron troll, Geezus, keeps tagging me incessantly. Anyway, I laughed my ass off at reading some of the comments. 

One of the commenters has given me sole credit for getting Disqus to remove their commenting platform from Return of Kings (RoK). This is not true. I have no power over Disqus and had no power over their decision to remove their comments from RoK. But it's funny as hell that the idiot RoK commenters think I am so powerful. 

Fear me!!!! 
Yes I am kidding, I have no power at all.